From what i read, its from Mark 10; Verse 2-5
the word says, Some Pharisees came and tested him by asking, "Is it lawful for a man to divorce his wife?" They said, "Moses permitted a man to write a certificate of divorce and send her away." It was because your hearts were hart that Moses wrote you this law," Jesus replied.
hmm Laws, i broke the law a couple weeks ago by parking in a handicap space. I break them everyday whether they are the laws of this world (Still authorized and used for the power of God to reach lives) and the laws of God which was shown to us by people like Moses, Jesus and other influentials in the bible. I cant help to think though, why were these laws made doesnt it just mkae life a little bit harder. For me, wont it make me think even more legalistically then i already do. its NOT BY WORKS paul is what i tell myself, its not about what you have done but its what Christ has done. These days, im realizing my heart, i shuold be transparent right i think other people see the weaknesses within me... i think. Bitterness, anger, pride, selfishness, hatred, negativity, lust, and so many other things. Even as im writing this its hard, as i sing praises to Him it gets more and more difficult. We struggle, but i count. i count over and over my own wrongs against the creator. WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT FOR ME to even struggle, when Paul talks about fighting the good fight shouldn't i be fighting and struggling, although my situation is totally different from His. Im dying, dying in this world that ive created inside the world thats perfect, the one i was reborn in. I feel like a broken pen, the ink spills and im messing up this picture. Isnt that a terrible feeling, the grace of God be here. Im hurting, struggling, and i dont really know why. Is it the sin, the discouragement in my life that i cant really feel??? am i even struggling, or is this a cry for help, for attention. For this need to fill my heart.
Laws, laws, laws, i hate them at least. It puts restrictions on us, restrictions that we feel like we dont need. But there put on us because we as sinful people do not know the difference between right and wrong. Our world as we know it is crumbling, like sodom and gomorah were falling into wretchedness as we speak. Destruction? is it amongst us, i feel like it is. The lines have been blurred, lines that we are crossing. We need laws because our hearts are hard Jesus says, to what extent are they hard, what are the reasons. Hardness comes from apathy, and i feel like i have that. Laws are needed, i need to abide by them. I am a hell deserving sinner but i am pardoned by the blood of Christ which makes me thankful... right. SEE! thats where my contradictions in my life comes. How much hypocricy can i live in before i can truly die to myself. Why do i try to live by these standards and could never come out. NEVER! its so hard this Christian life. Sometimes i want to give up, but then i dont because i know that He is with me, there are those that are praying for me, trying to encourage me, I need more of Jesus.
application, get out of this negative outlook on life, live more positively. Know that whatever i do He still loves me, and Go.
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